sorry mom, i cant be perfect ..

hey dad. mom. look at me.
think back and talk to me.
did I grow up according to plan?
and do you think, I'm wasting my time, doing things i wanna do.
but it hurts when you disaprove all along..

and now i try hard to make it .
i just wanna make you PROUD ..
i'm never gonna be good enough for you.
i cant pretend that i'm alright ..
and you cant change me.

cause we lost it at all
nothing lasts forever
sorry, i cant be perfect
now it just too late
and we cant go back
i'm sorry i cant be perfect..

i try not to think
but the pain i feel inside
did you know you used to be my hero ?
all the day you spent with me.
now seems so far away.
and it feels like you dont care anymore.

nothin's gonna change things that u've said
nothin's gonna make this right again
please dont turn your back
i cant believe it so hard to talk to you
but you dont understand ..

~~~

Ada satu hal yg paling kubenci dan paling kuhindari.
kecewa orang tua.

saat mghadapi fase itu, aku ngerasa gak brguna. gak brarti .


maafkan aku .. aku nggak bisa mwujudkan keinginan kalian..
yg harus kau tahu,
aku sudah brusaha kuat .

maaf jika aku bodoh mgartikan nasihatmu.

kalian sempurna.
maaf jika aku tak mampu mmpersembahkan edelweis
aku hny mampu mmetik ilalang d gunung harapanmu . aku tertatih mndakinya. jungkir balik . trpeleset batuan . maafkan aku ...

aku akan trus brjuang.
till there's no breath in mybody.
just wanna see your proudsmile.