Ada resep rahasia?

Di tengah kegaduhan kepalamu tertunduk
di saat yang lain riuh dengan dota-nya, terkikik-kikik dengan cerita temannya
kau sibuk dengan angka-angka limit, tabel fifo-lifo-average rate- dan pendapat-pendapat Geertz.

kau tampak begitu berbeda.
jadi seharusnya yang lain tak perlu berdecak kagum
ketika kau berturut-turut mendapat tempat di kursi paling terhormat
kau berlari sangat cepat. menyamai larimu butuh tenaga, pikiran, dan fokus yang ekstra. harus lebih ekstra darimu, barang sepersekian detik.

mengamatimu adalah hal termudah untuk dilakukan
kau gampang membocorkan rahasia gemilang pekerjaanmu
kau mudah ditebak, mudah diajak tertawa, mudah bercerita.

bertaruh dengan diri sendiri untuk mengalahkanmupun bisa saja.
membersamaimu, mengetahui cara-caramu, membaca gelagatmu,
sudah kulakukan.

tapi pasti ada yang salah!
kau punya resep rahasia yang mungkin tidak kau tunjukkan.
apa itu, apa itu, apa itu.
Oh aku sungguh ingin tahu...

Our world, yesterday and today.

Baru berselancar di blog dan notes notes lama milik sahabat-sahabat smp.
kemudian sadar tentang banyak hal. momen-momen yang dulu sama-sama dilakukan bareng temen sekelas. terlalu sesak akan hal indah :)
Ah, How I miss those moments.

dan seiring berjalannya waktu, semakin dewasa kita, semakin bertambah usia dan pengalaman, lingkungan yang berbeda, teman-teman yang kadang secara tidak langsung menuntut seperti ini- seperti itu, aku harus menyadari hal ini;

life must go on.
klise sekali. tapi memang seperti itu.

we shouldnt be mad if we found our friends change. because we did. we all did.

but I cant deny this, sometimes I hate being grown up.
I hate those paradigm : If you love someone, just say it! or you will lose your chance to make your dream comes true.."
Have a girlfriend or boyfriend is the only thing that makes us happy. even we had sooo many besties! selalu aja ada yang kurang.

dan aku selalu buru-buru keluar dari pikiran ini.
ini normal. this is the cycle of life. kita hanya ada di salah satu tahapnya.

and then when I found myself in this way, it was so amazing! how can I reach this place?
Oh, God. You are the Greatest..

Dunia boleh berubah, tapi kumohon persahabatan kita tidak.
I love you, Angob 2k8-2k9

Can I call you Angel?

The snow fell, leaving a halo of white upon your head,
and that's when I said,
Can I call you Angel?

You looked at me with surprise,
but I could see it in your eyes,
and I knew.

As you sang silent night,
your beautiful voice put me at ease,
and I asked please,
Can I call you Angel?

A smile came to your face with serenity and grace,
but you said not a word.
In my darkest hours you held my hand,
never leaving my side, and I said, while I cried,
Can I call you Angel?

You then began to wipe the tears away
and erase all the gray in my life.
You led me down a path of gold,
telling me of the creator above,
and again I asked with a greater love,
Can I call you Angel?

You never answered my plea,
so I fell to my knee in prayer.
As I opened my eyes, I could see you before me;
Your wings spread and a golden halo upon your head
and one last time I said,
Can I call you Angel?

by : Erin Sheets

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This is the kind of beautiful friendship poems. My senior, Dian Sari Widadi make a song from this poems, by her piano. I swear, It's outstanding..
I do love that song :)